I'm Tired

**Note: This post is whiny and a bit petty. Please don't read if you are just going to think I'm a horrible human being. I am perfectly aware that my problems are very small in the grand scheme of things. But, it's my blog and I'll write what I want.**

Here's the deal. I'm tired. Mentally. I've been getting enough sleep and generally feel pretty good but I'm tired. My life is starting to run away with me and I don't remember what's happened. Mostly, I'm tired of walking through life alone. Single. I have amazing friends and I am grateful beyond words for them. It's because of them that I am not actually alone. But, they aren't at my house at the end of each day. They aren't always there where I just want someone else in the room with me. They can help me make big decisions in life but it's not exactly the same. I feel like I always have to be in charge and I kind of want to make someone else do it for awhile.
I'm in one of those seasons of life where things at work and things personally are both going full speed. We're trying to finish out the last 2 1/2 months of the fiscal year at work by hitting an extreme goal. Deadlines are tight and the chances to make mistakes are around every corner. One day off means I'm three days behind. At the same time, I also agreed to co-chair a capital campaign that my church is doing. We're just getting started and this is the most intense time for all of that work. I'm working with great people but there are a million different details to figure out and keep track of. I'm looked to as one of the people that can provide guidance and structure to the team. It's my job to help keep people on task while not falling behind on my own tasks. It's working towards something that I believe strongly in but it's going to be a challenge to get there. I'm feeling like I'm walking the line between the breaking point and my sanity. So far, I'm keeping my balance.
That's where I'm at. I'm done being petty for now.